He gave up on you. He sat there and called you names. He obviously didn’t put you first or second. And here you are blaming yourself. Trust me dear, it’s not your fault. It’s his fault he couldn’t handle what you have to offer and that’s okay. 

Too high can’t come down.

That’s how I feel tbh.
You built me up so high and I’m still so caught up in the clouds when I should be down to earth.